Tonight Im thinking and I hope no body uses this against me.
But I miss her. I miss her a lot. I do miss Abby because she was my love and I talked to her about everything and she was the one person I wasn’t so afraid to share my feelings with. all my feelings: anger, hate, love, sadness, happiness… but I don’t have her to share that with anymore and it sucks! becuase I once had a really special someone that I had but it’s gone now.
I shouldn’t even be thinking about her but i still fucking do! She doesn’t give a shit about me and doesn’t want to talk to me at all anymore and has a new boyfriend and me? I’m still by myself with nobody. I have my best friend, but it’s not the same.
and I hate it when people talk shit about her, or say things that she did to me that they can’t know for sure. I don’t want to hear that she cheated on me, because no one can know that for sure unless it’s her and for some reason i trust and believe that she didn’t.
It’s been three months since she broke up with me…and…i still think about her. and now it’s different because now i’m having mixed feelings because i miss her then i start to not find her as attractive, then i wish i was with her again and then I’m with other girls enjoying being single… but as myself…being single is a fuhking curse! I actually hate being single.
I want somebody to love and I need somebody to love who loves me as I do her.
Tonight…my only wish…is that she would talk to me. Talk to me without this hate that she has for me…like when we were friends… my only wish.