Tonight Im thinking and I hope no body uses this against me.
But I miss her. I miss her a lot. I do miss Abby because she was my love and I talked to her about everything and she was the one person I wasn’t so afraid to share my feelings with. all my feelings: anger, hate, love, sadness, happiness… but I don’t have her to share that with anymore and it sucks! becuase I once had a really special someone that I had but it’s gone now.
I shouldn’t even be thinking about her but i still fucking do! She doesn’t give a shit about me and doesn’t want to talk to me at all anymore and has a new boyfriend and me? I’m still by myself with nobody. I have my best friend, but it’s not the same.
and I hate it when people talk shit about her, or say things that she did to me that they can’t know for sure. I don’t want to hear that she cheated on me, because no one can know that for sure unless it’s her and for some reason i trust and believe that she didn’t.
It’s been three months since she broke up with me…and…i still think about her. and now it’s different because now i’m having mixed feelings because i miss her then i start to not find her as attractive, then i wish i was with her again and then I’m with other girls enjoying being single… but as myself…being single is a fuhking curse! I actually hate being single.
I want somebody to love and I need somebody to love who loves me as I do her.
Tonight…my only wish…is that she would talk to me. Talk to me without this hate that she has for me…like when we were friends… my only wish.
Why should I be crying?
I’m walking away from someone who didn’t love me in the end.
She’s walking away from someone who loved her more than anything.
So I should be smiling.
Why am I happy?
I have the chance to meet someone who will be very happy to be with me.
I have all this love to give that I will only give to a girl who deserves me.
The next girl is lucky.
I just can’t forget. Never in a million years, no matter how hard I try. I’m afraid she might though, and that sucks. Why am I thinking about this now, I was doing fine today until I saw her name on my phone telling me she’s giving me my stuff back.
when that time come, how will i react?
I wake up and the moments and thoughts catch up again and I messed up and ruined everything. Everything was perfect while we were together, but things fell apart as were away from each other.
I think the most saddest thing is that, she doesn’t love me anymore.
she doesn’t love me anymore.
If she does, it’s love for a friend…and I’m afraid it may not be like that at all.
All the memories of the great times we had are forever memories.
All the times that I wish i could have done better will now, for lack of a better word, haunt me.
I’m back to feeling locked and tight inside a cage.
I think she’s better off without me. I can’t give her the world, because she wants the world.I did my best, but it wasn’t enough to keep her. All my efforts to be with her are wiped away.
even if she doesn’t love me,I know I’ll still love her.
We told each other we’d never leave each other, but she left me.
We told each other we loved each other no matter what, but she doesn’t love me like that anymore.
She told me I was her gift from God and that she shouldn’t give away a gift from God, but she gave that gift back.
She said she would love me forever, but kept silent when I told her i love her.
I thought things were fine, but the longer i was away from her, the more she didn’t want me anymore.
She was holding back a smile as she was telling me she was breaking up with me.
I said the wrong things, did the wrong things. and I’m not forgiven.
selfishness ended our relationship.
I still ask, why?
Will we ever get back together?
Will she love me again?
I lost what I loved most.
…and it just ends, like that.